Anger

At once, I felt my heart rate get higher, my blood pressure increased, my level of adrenalin rises, and I am overwhelmed with a burning feeling. The trigger was a sentence that came out from someone that has a good intention. I was surprised with how fast my body react. I kept saying to myself: This is a very small matter, it is not directly about you, it should not affect you so much, please be calm.

During my effort of coping with my anger, I come across the Wikipedia site about anger [1]. Anger can be expressed passively (eg. obsessives behavior, self-blame), aggressively (eg. bullying, selfishness, threats, destructive), or assertively (eg. blame, punishment). This knowledge makes me understand myself better, especially when I express my anger passively. Anger comes when someone certain about the cause of the angering event, when someone is certain that someone else is responsible, or when someone feels that he/she can influence the situation. It is strongly related to his/her expectation of the world to be different than it is. From the explanation above, I think we can assume that when someone got angry at you, it means that he/she still has hope or expectation of you (maybe too high). 

These days I read the book of Jeremiah. The word 'anger' or 'angry' appeared around 37 times in that book. I can not stop thinking: Oh, God, you were very angry. However, on the other hand, it means that God still has hope or expectation. Knowing this, change the way of my thinking, it makes me want to even get closer to God.

“In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry - Ephesians 4:26

Coping with anger is not easy. Sometimes it needs some expectation adjustment. Sometimes we need to release forgiveness. Sometimes it is best to just come to the presence of God and ask Him for help. If you are currently struggling with anger management, please remind yourself that God loves you. Therefore, please give some space in your heart for God's love.

[1] https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anger